While I was having a bad night dealing with… well… a lot of
life!! I look to the internet to give me an uplifting inspirational movie! So I
google “inspirational movie on Netflix”! So you would think a huge genre of
movies would come piling in! However that is not the case! You see in my
everyday life I am “the fixer”! To sum up my life I am the Director of All Who
Walks In Front of Her! I wear many hats and at this moment have a couple more
hats waiting for me, which puts me on edge!
So quick back story…
I am a Certified Personal Trainer, a Director of Client
Services for a Business Development Company, Fitness Instructor, and soon to be
co-restaurant owner, and maybe co owner of a new gym which no matter what I am
managing and employing regardless of status!! Oh yeah did I mention I just got
a new puppy that just got his ears cropped. Oh yeah and I was asked to
interview for the job of my life! You know that one that you went to college
for, the one that you would give anything up for…7 years ago?! So to say the
least I have daily struggles! I have hourly struggle! I have minutely
struggles!! (huh?) (No I am not a mom, this is a daily struggle in figuring out
where I fit that in too!!)
So enough about me?! Haha!
So tonight I go to look for that inspirational movie that
will get me out of my “rut” if that’s what you want to call it! I will call it
a full on emotional adult breakdown!! Where all you want to do is run away, far
far away!! You don’t care about your bills, your spouse, your house, and your responsibilities!
All you can think of is getting to the nearest poe-dunk town so no one knows
you and no one will expect anything from you!! Because all you really want is a
night off! Even the night you get your hair done and you think you have the
night off to go show off how pretty you look! Nope! Keep dreaming momma!! (I
only say momma because I can bet the momma’s know what I am talking about more
than me!!)
Getting off track!!
Those inspirational movies! Really! So obviously I am a fitness
trainer and I love my fair share of workout movies but come on the first top 9
inspirational movies google gave me were “Rocky”, “Rudy”, “Man on Wire”, “Maidentrap”(huh?),
“Rising From Ashes”, “180 degrees South”, “Dessert Runner” etc. I could keep
going but I’m getting tired!! So here is my dilemma!! I fully understand these
are inspirational characters physically! They defeated what most can’t or won’t
in their lives! I admire these people, of course because this is what I work
towards daily!! However is this the only inspiring person left? Does it have to
be who lifts the most weight? Who lasts the longest in a title round? Who climbs
the biggest mountain? They are inspirational but not every day!! Those are my
long term goals. I want to be the best, I want to climb my highest mountain, I
want to beat my biggest opponent (me!), I want to be these people(within my own
limits and world) but is that what is inspiring us (meaning the WORLD) daily?!
When I think of inspirational movie, the first movie I
thought of was “The Joy Luck Club”. For the most obvious reason I am part
Chinese and admire Chinese culture but it was more than that. I wanted to feel
something! I wanted to feel that my daily challenges weren’t challenges but
more like hiccups in the routine of life! I wanted to be moved to continue to
make a difference! And this movie does it for me! It may not you but it does
with me! Another movie that comes to mind is “Forest Gump”, now tell me he didn’t
overcome obstacles and he did it without recourse, without doubt, and with
compassion!! I yearn to have compassion again! I have gotten so caught up in
life I forgot what it was like to have compassion!
So my point is this, Live Your Life! While searching for a
way out of my head, I found myself in my head writing this! Did it help? Maybe!
But I need to get out of my way and live my life! Don’t look for someone to
tell you what to do or a sign on how to do it! Find it within yourself and hold
on tight because it is going to be a bumpy ride!
Only with love and happiness, I hope you find your place and
comfort in this world! If not now keep searching, you are worth it!
Without Struggle There Is No Change!
